The feel of India

I landed at the Indira Gandhi International Airport, New Delhi on the 24th November 2009. The first step that I took into my country after almost a year is one I can never forget. I had never been out for so long and I couldn't wait to smell India( Our country has its own smell which seems so pure), see Indian faces around me and also to hear people talk in Hindi.

I had been waiting to return ever since I stepped out of the country and when the time was approaching I was anxious. I would wonder, how would it feel to be back?How will the people be there?Will I be bombarded with questions? And countless other questions. This was about two weeks before the 24th. All of it disappeared as soon as I came out of the airport and saw my country.

My Brother in Law was the first person I saw,then chintu bhaiya and DD the emotion is unexplainable.

I had been planning to eat kebabs, dal and roti fo a long time and thats what I did first.

the vacation started the way I had thought it would be.its was simply amazing.

Its me....And....A lot....

I have let her down again.I know its not the last time too.It just happens and sometimes I want it to.You know what,right?I don't want to hurt anyone and definitely not her.But its Shail jalan and when its me I am what i am.Their are certain things that I don't like to let go of and I hope you understand what they are.

I don't know why am i so stuck up with certain things.I want to move but i can't stop myself from not moving.I have nothing in me but I have a lot.I am single faceted but not.Its complicated yeah!!!

I don't want to apologise as it is of no use and I know you don't want to hear it.Shail Jalan will be this way until she outgrows it.